The Doubts of a Novice Blogger

I’ve been thinking quite a bit about my blogging over the past week. And in particular I’ve been considering the last few posts I’ve written.

You see, it’s all very new to me, the idea of writing about my experiences and thoughts, bearing my soul to the wide world.

I’ve been trying to provide some background to a part of my life, my mental illness, my personality disorder.

I’m not sure whether revisiting the potential causes is for the benefit of others or myself. I hope it helps others in some ways, or else why do it. And yet I can’t help but question the point – there are already tens of thousands of articles out there saying pretty much the same thing. Who wants to hear it again? Who wants to know? Am I just falling into a narcissistic trap? Is this just a manifestation of my illness, or is it a part of my healthy personality?

And what about the style. Am I just writing in a factual way to avoid my feelings? I know that rationalisation is a favourite defence of mine.

7B90C2A9-4070-44BC-844B-86106A290F9BOr am I using my blogging to gain approval?

Judging by the number of times I check the stats to see how many visitors and views I’ve had I’m sure that’s part of it. What, no comments? Only four likes? You mean I invested a day thinking through and writing a piece and only four people liked it.

And even then I question..did they actually read it or just glance at it.

Again the question, why am I writing this? Wouldn’t I be better engaged leading a prayer group or just receiving help rather than trying to give it?

Yet I feel called forward, so I’ll keep writing.

I just wanted you to know that the act of blogging doesn’t come without serious doubts, doubts that we either listen to or choose to ignore.

For the time being at least, I’m choosing to ignore them. And to keep praying.

 

5 thoughts on “The Doubts of a Novice Blogger

  1. Hey! Yes, you are absolutely right, there are tens of thousands of articles that essentially say the same thing. But, that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t share your experiences. We each have an individual voice and sometimes the way you might say something (even if it has already been said) it might resonate with someone else who has been looking for help. Don’t ever feel like what your doing is superfluous, its just not true. Otherwise books would never get written. Some person out there will prefer your voice over everyone else’s, just keep that in mind. 🙂

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  2. Your hard work will pay off and I’m sure there are many of us who appreciate that you share your experiences. It doesn’t matter if there’s many similar posts, your unique spin on it will be new! After all, you have taught me a lot already! It’s easy to doubt yourself but try give yourself credit also. You have a great blog 🙂

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  3. Just keep feeling into your passion and write from there…Every voice creates its unique echo that balances harmony in the World …Namaste’ and blessings abundant🤗

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